I’m 29 weeks pregnant this week! After my 28 week post last week, wherein I made some big confessions about my state of mind, I’ve had SO much positive support from people reaching out to tell me it’s going to be okay. I can’t tell you how much it means to me to hear from everyone and feel so understood. My pain and worry and fear has been acknowledged as OKAY, and it has completely changed the way I look at things in the last week.
I’ll admit that part of what has helped was that I had a new anatomy scan done on Friday, which confirmed that my baby boy is COMPLETELY healthy and beautiful and right on schedule. There is absolutely NO cause for concern for him at this point. Everything is exactly as it should be, which is wonderful. Around this point with Daniel, we were under so much stress with doctors telling us so many things were wrong with him. Heart defects, possible Down syndrome and various other issues. And it was also at 28 weeks that my cervix began rapidly shortening and the fetal fibronectin test came back positive for imminent labor. I was on bed rest from 30 weeks onward.
Anyway, the reassurance of knowing that all is well with the baby, and my cervix was perfectly long made me do a little happy dance.
I was also really pleased that the doctor I saw at the Maternal Fetal Medicine department at the LDS Hospital was so absolutely wonderful. He went through my entire pregnancy history with me and actually listened to me and took seriously all of my concerns and worries. I was also VERY lucky because he’s the first and only doctor who agreed with me about NOT having diabetes. He had actually written a published study a few years ago about the affects of weight loss surgery on diabetes, so he totally understood why I think there is no need for concern. He also said that my A1C test came back LOWER than a normal person’s, which means that even if I DID have diabetes, it is TOTALLY under control. Huzzah!
We also spoke of my depression and anxiety, and he gave me some suggestions of resources, which was appreciated. And we spoke about the cholestasis that necessitated the emergency induction with Daniel. He said that once you’ve had it, there’s a 60% chance it’ll come back in another pregnancy. He wants to do a liver panel test to check my bile acid levels, if for no other reason than to have a base line for the future. He told me that if I begin to get it again (which I suspect I am if the levels of itch I am enduring lately are any indication!), they will try me on medication and try to hold out to 37 weeks. They will not make me suffer any longer than that. Again, I say HUZZAH!
So yes, I am doing a lot better this week. I feel like a LOT of the stress has melted away. It’s also interesting to go back through previous pregnancy posts on this blog and read what I went through in the others, as it seems I had some astounding depression issues with both of them, too, which I hadn’t really remembered. It gives me hope!
Here’s this week’s bump photo for posterity. Notice how much happier I am!