If I’m totally honest, I really have no desire to update about ANYTHING at the moment. I feel like the world is just throwing stuff at me that I don’t want to have to deal with at the moment. But that’s life, isn’t it?
This week we are back in Florida, having left the comfort of my familial home to travel back down south so that we’re closer to my doctor. After the bleeding issues of last week, I’ve still been having occasional bleeds, though they are small and not too scary.
Yesterday, Dexter came over to me to have a cuddle, and I noticed he needed his diaper changed. So I said, “let’s go change your butt, kid!” as I always do, and as HE always does, he ran off laughing. I got up to chase after him, and the next thing I knew I was waking up with a throbbing head and nausea, laying on the floor with Mark looking into my eyes with concern. It seems that somehow, I passed out and whacked my head on the desk in the living room. Mark had tried to awaken me, and had even put a pillow under my head, but apparently I was difficult to wake up. Normally when I pass out (which luckily hasn’t happened much this pregnancy so far!), it’s for only 30 seconds or so. But we know I was out for at LEAST 10 minutes, as my computer screen had shut off, which takes 10 minutes to do.
Anyway, that was slightly scary, and more than a little stressful.
We also had some frustrating and stressful news out of the UK last night, regarding legal issues. I guess when we sold our car earlier this year, we didn’t notify the right people of the new owners, and as such, while we were gone, they took us to court and levied a large fine on us! So we need to sort that out. Then, the house we own there, we found out isn’t allowed to be rented out, so they’ve increased our mortgage by about £300 (that’s around $475!!) a month.
The stress of it all is REALLY getting to me, and last night I struggled to get to sleep. Mind you, I struggle EVERY night these days, but last night I felt like there was a giant weight on my chest.
It just seems like every day there’s a new issue to contend with.
It kills me because Mark works SO hard and does SO much to take care of our little family, and then something stupid comes along and pulls the rug out from under us.
We were all excited about going house hunting this weekend, but now I think we need to hold off until all of our legal issues are sorted and we can have a better idea of how this is going to impact us financially.
I guess this has turned into more of a rant than a pregnancy update. But the truth is that I just feel really low at the moment, and even my burgeoning bump and the constant sweet pokes and prods from baby boy aren’t helping.
I should probably just go and relax and try and forget my troubles for a while.
Here’s my 22 week bump pic: